Thursday 9th December
Just came back from C.O. my brain has absolutely fizzed out, so hope you wont mind me if my words dont make any sense or if im severely grammatically incorrect. If you do, youre jolly well welcome to click the cross at the top right-hand corner of this window.
Practiced quite a fair bit today. Watched wanting get very pissed (cant remember for what reason. Think it has something to do with us not listening to her). Feel kind of sad for her. Takes ages for her to get us to keep quiet. Or should I say, lower down our volume. Would say more but my brain has absolutely given up on me. Type anymore and you wont be reading proper English words anymore so I shall stop here.
Friday 10th December
Went to school as early as yesterday for C.O. Had this activity which required us to make gifts out of 2 pieces of construction paper and 2 vanguard sheets for our instructors. Such a silly activity. This may sound clichéd, but it is the thought that counts when giving a gift. How people actually put effort into making the gift (im referring to my group here)? I think the instructors would rather have us listen to them cooperate with them and go home and practice our guts out instead of making stuff for them.
Anyway, since im not gonna post this anytime soon, I shall reveal what we have made – a log cake. We spent an AGE deciding on what to make. Came up with many ludicrous and un-original ideas so in the end, we decided on making the so-called log cake. And as expected, the log cake turned out, not very much like a log cake. There were comments of it looking more like a water pipe. With sides which did not even fit into the rolled up tube, its a wonder that it even vaguely resembles a logcake.
Was about 15minutes late coming back from lunch because we lost track of time while chatting with Jameson. Arrived in the C.O. room with everyone staring. How embarrassing. Shall take extra care in making sure that im not late in the future.
After practice, had the internal music exchange. There were these 2 juniors that kept staring at my sock for awhile. Wonder whats so interesting about it. Sure, the sock looked long because I had it dragged out in the front, but it did not, for one, have a hole. Moreover, it was a SWISS sock. I seen much more interesting socks with imprints of bumblebees on them, yet I dont stare at them. Really, i cant fathom what they find so interesting/amusing about it. Perhaps they just have a weird fetish for socks.
As I was saying (or rather, typing) the internal music exchange. Was kind of fun this year because there were less performances to sit through, and I actually enjoyed the performances, especially wantings solo, the gu zheng solo, and the long teng hu ye percussion piece. Was kind of hilarious at one time because Melissa went hysterical after jasons gu zheng performance. She was gushing – omg its so nice - and all that. It looked as though she was going to be moved to tears. Not sure if it was my eyes were playing tricks on me or anything, but I could’ve sworn that her eyes were glistening. It was kind of amusing seeing shi weis smile get bigger with each mistake she made. I would’ve totally freaked out if I were in her position.
After the whole thing ended, I decided to bring back the schools erhu (yes, you read correctly, I actually brought my erhu home. And I heard that gasp.) instead of using my out-of-tune erhu at home so that I could practice with an erhu that emitted correct notes. Suddenly, as I was wearing my shoes, I remembered that the erhu I had in my case was kai shins new erhu which she had changed with me right before the music exchange. So I had to go back in again to change the erhus. Found out that I accidentally broke off the already broken head of the erhu which had been glued back on. Was like oOps! Oh well, just like me to manhandle stuff.
Anyway going to play Conquer Online now so im not going to continue.
Saturday 11th December
Last day of the camp. Our section held a party and we gave the gifts we had made the previous day to mr chua. Yes, including our hideous log cake. Ate only a bit of cake, because people wanted to share with me the cake. But, at least that makes me eat less. Mr chua did the other groups crossword puzzle. I was so not expecting them to put my interest in wrestling for my description, so when mr chua asked if it was me, I was like – hUh? – which I think, did sound kind of rude. Oh well, another black mark on my name I guess.
After that, had full orchestra. Messed up big time. Was fine for the other songs, but during the erhu piece, all my notes kept going off. The problem worsened when my chua stood next to my row. All the disgusting noises kept spewing out of my erhu. Felt so pissed at myself for not being able to play a simple song. Could feel his stare boring at me. Felt like so horrible. Wanted to dig a hole and hide there for the rest of my life.
On my way home, the mistakes I made kept going through my mind. By the time I got home, I was utterly depressed. Didnt have any appetite, so I spent my time staring into space, then I went to play Conquer Online and electrify a few monsters. Hah! Like that helped much. Im still moping about, and getting more and more pissed with myself. Anyway, better send here before i spew a whole load of obscenities.